Hey, I've really been meaning to write a blog lately and just haven't gotten to it. I have work within an hour so I wanna write just a quick one.
A lot of the roller coaster kind of stuff this week. Especially in my so called "love life" lol. I've really become that girl that I didn't want to be. The one who is always paranoid that she's bugging the boy even if it really isn't. The one who always has to start the conversation because she wants to speak to him so bad and he doesn't get the clue. I've never wanted to be that girl but I've become her. It started a year an a half ago and stopped... but it's back. What do I do now though? How can you stop your feelings for someone enough to not be that clingy kind of person? Or how do you just come out and be like "I'm really into you"?
I wish there was a way for him to see it (maybe it's this blog) my way. How do I tell him "I know it wasn't easy the first time but I want to try again"? Not an easy task at all. And the funny thing is that as much as I want it... I really don't want it at all again. I don't wanna set myself up for another heartbreak. I really want to move on. Hell, I have liked other guys since then but for some reason I'm right back in it. It's funny. I want to laugh at myself for being so foolish.
And it's the same thing with friendship. I feel like I'm going in circles. We seem to have the same problems over and over and over and over.... and over again. So why put myself through it again? I need to move away and change my number and etc etc. Lmfao I wouldn't do that though.
This blog is so random lol. It may not make any sense to you but to someone else hopefully it does...
Alright, I ran out of time.
xoxo
LIVVVVVVVVVVVIA<3
March 24, 2010
March 17, 2010
Twitter Break
So Jen & I are in the middle of a "Who can go the longest without tweeting?" contest. It's been pretty good. If anything we've really helped each other along with a ton of teasing lol. I have faith that we will really go far, other than a few desires between the two of us and the usual "If I was tweeting I would tweet that" comments, we've really been good.
We're still allowed to go on twitter to peek at what's happening with the world, considering it's one of the biggest social networks, receiving news is fairly easy. So why cut off that tie to the world? Though it is a major tease. If we are really dedicated, I see ourselves completely cutting off twitter in the future.
I've pretty much come back to Facebook and actually have been able to speak to a few people I hadn't in a really long time. My cousin, Julie, was one. I feel like I haven't actually spoken to her in so long. I saw her last at a holiday party at her house... I can't even begin to tell you if that was either Thanksgiving or Christmas. Like I've said, those months are really blurry lol. So anyways, coming back to that is really helping.
I have the support of some friends and other not so much. I'm the "OMG I'M GONNA TWEET THAT!!" kind so I understand. In all honesty, I wish they wouldn't pick a side though, cause believe or not... we're going to be taking this thing really far lol. Just a warning to all of you actually reading.
Another thing I've done since "quitting" twitter is listen to a lot of music. Something I've always had a passion for, hence all the concerts and people I've been fortunate to meet. I'm a little late with this one album that's caught my eye though. Four months to the date, late actually, but OneRepublic's Waking Up. I finally bought it yesterday and listened to it while reading a review with Jen. I've really fallen in love with it. My absolute favorites are "Secrets," "Everybody Loves Me" and of course their single "All The Right Moves." Amazing album and I'm going to be blasting it in my car everywhere I go :)
Even on the way to Ocean City, MD friday. I can't wait!
Oh yea! Never thought I would be admitting this but... I actually like Bieber. He's definitely grown on me. As a friend told me just last week, "He's the new thing and he will be for a long time, so why not enjoy the ride." You can hate someone all you want for the wrong reasons but one day you will realize they're not that bad and that you never really hated them at all, you were just going with the flow of others. The point in being into music, and seeing a million and one concerts is to be optimistic of the unexpected. The saying "widen your horizons" comes to mind lol.
Anyways, I really like the kid. I was even subscribed to his YouTube once, a few years ago when no one knew who he was and he would sing Usher/Chris Brown covers to "pretty girls like Esmee Denters" :)
Alright, if I don't end this soon, I could probably write a history book of my own.
Have a good day and remember... "this has gotta be the good life" - OneRepublic
xoxo livv
P.S.-- I'm extremely surprised I didn't mention one word about Jemi... oops... just ruined that :P
OH! And I love Shanna... That i all :P
We're still allowed to go on twitter to peek at what's happening with the world, considering it's one of the biggest social networks, receiving news is fairly easy. So why cut off that tie to the world? Though it is a major tease. If we are really dedicated, I see ourselves completely cutting off twitter in the future.
I've pretty much come back to Facebook and actually have been able to speak to a few people I hadn't in a really long time. My cousin, Julie, was one. I feel like I haven't actually spoken to her in so long. I saw her last at a holiday party at her house... I can't even begin to tell you if that was either Thanksgiving or Christmas. Like I've said, those months are really blurry lol. So anyways, coming back to that is really helping.
I have the support of some friends and other not so much. I'm the "OMG I'M GONNA TWEET THAT!!" kind so I understand. In all honesty, I wish they wouldn't pick a side though, cause believe or not... we're going to be taking this thing really far lol. Just a warning to all of you actually reading.
Another thing I've done since "quitting" twitter is listen to a lot of music. Something I've always had a passion for, hence all the concerts and people I've been fortunate to meet. I'm a little late with this one album that's caught my eye though. Four months to the date, late actually, but OneRepublic's Waking Up. I finally bought it yesterday and listened to it while reading a review with Jen. I've really fallen in love with it. My absolute favorites are "Secrets," "Everybody Loves Me" and of course their single "All The Right Moves." Amazing album and I'm going to be blasting it in my car everywhere I go :)
Even on the way to Ocean City, MD friday. I can't wait!
Oh yea! Never thought I would be admitting this but... I actually like Bieber. He's definitely grown on me. As a friend told me just last week, "He's the new thing and he will be for a long time, so why not enjoy the ride." You can hate someone all you want for the wrong reasons but one day you will realize they're not that bad and that you never really hated them at all, you were just going with the flow of others. The point in being into music, and seeing a million and one concerts is to be optimistic of the unexpected. The saying "widen your horizons" comes to mind lol.
Anyways, I really like the kid. I was even subscribed to his YouTube once, a few years ago when no one knew who he was and he would sing Usher/Chris Brown covers to "pretty girls like Esmee Denters" :)
Alright, if I don't end this soon, I could probably write a history book of my own.
Have a good day and remember... "this has gotta be the good life" - OneRepublic
xoxo livv
P.S.-- I'm extremely surprised I didn't mention one word about Jemi... oops... just ruined that :P
OH! And I love Shanna... That i all :P
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