Somebody To Love

Hey, I've really been meaning to write a blog lately and just haven't gotten to it. I have work within an hour so I wanna write just a quick one.

A lot of the roller coaster kind of stuff this week. Especially in my so called "love life" lol. I've really become that girl that I didn't want to be. The one who is always paranoid that she's bugging the boy even if it really isn't. The one who always has to start the conversation because she wants to speak to him so bad and he doesn't get the clue. I've never wanted to be that girl but I've become her. It started a year an a half ago and stopped... but it's back. What do I do now though? How can you stop your feelings for someone enough to not be that clingy kind of person? Or how do you just come out and be like "I'm really into you"?

I wish there was a way for him to see it (maybe it's this blog) my way. How do I tell him "I know it wasn't easy the first time but I want to try again"? Not an easy task at all. And the funny thing is that as much as I want it... I really don't want it at all again. I don't wanna set myself up for another heartbreak. I really want to move on. Hell, I have liked other guys since then but for some reason I'm right back in it. It's funny. I want to laugh at myself for being so foolish.

And it's the same thing with friendship. I feel like I'm going in circles. We seem to have the same problems over and over and over and over.... and over again. So why put myself through it again? I need to move away and change my number and etc etc. Lmfao I wouldn't do that though.

This blog is so random lol. It may not make any sense to you but to someone else hopefully it does...

Alright, I ran out of time.

xoxo
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